Daily Diary

July 1st

Dear Diary,

Last week, my friend made me understand the importance of journaling. I have never understood why people kept diaries and I must admit that it felt like putting your secrets in a place where people could eventually find them.

I’m sure you’re wondering why I am starting my own diary in July? Well… I have better chances of finishing something if I start it on the 1st of a month or a year. Sometimes, I abandon along the way, but I’m sure you get the point. It happens to the best of us.

Today, I watched the much vulgarised movie “50 Shades of Grey” and I found the movie a bit overrated and unnecessary. Well, it was a cringeworthy experience. It was hard for me to watch till the end. I eventually finished it.

Despite the popular opinion that people are generally against enduring pain, it has proven that people actually love being in relationships in which pain is inflicted on them. If not, why are there a lot of cases of gender based violence?

I’ve also noticed that people would pretend to condole with you, but are secretly happy you’re going through pain and would gladly be the inflictors of that pain, if they could.

But I am not sure I can come to terms with the fact that people are really happy in sadomasochistic relationships. Is it the strange popularization of weird sexual practices by the world wide web? But if by some small chance, they are, then they are mentally unstable.

Today also, I discovered that the pursuit of the next best thing can be detrimental to my person. Why am I so obsessed about tomorrow when I haven’t fully lived today? How do I manage these anxieties? I think life is one hell of a hard exam. We can copy, but we are not sure to pass.

Dear Diary, keep my thoughts as secret as news can be…