Daily Diary
SEPTEMBER 23rd
Dear Diary,
Have you ever thought of how you decide to become just friends with someone you were involved with romantically and it all seems to be fun until they meet some other person and then you start realizing that that’s not and will never be what you want with them? Sometimes you stay back pretending to want to be only friends when what you really want is to be given a second chance and for you to right every wrong you did that brought your relationship to an end. You just wish the other person forgives you and learns to trust you again — so you stay around pretending to want to be their friend only, knowing fully well that you will always want more.
It’s been 10 days since my new favorite person and I mutually decided to break our relationship and remain just friends and though we’ve been separated for all this time, I still get to see her a lot and every moment, I can’t but wonder if I’m not being selfish for always wanting to be by her. And for the first time since that day, I feel like writing again. I remember that this is the reason I wanted a diary — to be able to document my sorrows, joy, love, pain, depression, etc
And while I’m at it again, I wonder if people believe in soulmates… Miles Munroe says in his book Waiting and Dating that there’s no special person made or reserved by God for you and I believe it. But then again, how is it that with the countless possibilities of having a soulmate, many people end up not having one at all? How many of us truly believe in a soulmate? Or maybe we have the wrong idea of what a soulmate is or should be? Even in all this charade, we still believe that some soulmates are more soulmates than others. After all, ALL ANIMALS ARE EQUAL, BUT SOME ARE MORE EQUAL THAN OTHERS. Maiva says my new favorite person might be my soul mate. Maybe the one true soul mate. I think so too. What’s there to do or say? Only time will tell — QUI VIVRA, VERRA.
And it isn’t as easy as it seems. It isn’t as hard as people describe it. Love is all things but love remains the most beautiful thing you can and will ever experience. Of all the things I’ve been afraid of in my life, what has caused me to panic the most is the fear of ending up alone. While we want to promote family love over all others, there is none that comes close to the one you feel for and share with your favorite person because when the world must have moved on and your life gone, you will have but that one person to smile at and hold tight. So in the midst of every other thing you’re looking for, don’t forget to find love.
Dear Diary, keep my thoughts as secret as news can be…
