Daily Diary

October 14th

Dear Diary,

It’s hard to concentrate on yourself when the world’s standards for riches and work and constantly changing to make the average honest earner to be looked down on. When you feel like you’re making a breakthrough, there’s some other person who is at least 500 steps ahead and you sit down and wonder — if you’re not careful, you start to curse and to envy and to minimize your own little steps. For a man, it gets worse because nobody really has your back and you know it and it hurts to see that you can give your best and yet it still won’t ever be good enough.

Yesterday marked the last day of the first week at my new job and though I haven’t been up to a lot lately, I am grateful for the opportunity to leave the house daily. Above all things, I am grateful for the ability to earn. While at a food truck, a man in perfect health(I am assuming), walking up to us begging for money — I am happy that I can resort to noble and not demeaning or dishonest methods to earn, even if it might seem like peanuts. Like I said, there is always somebody, something or some situation that makes you feel worthless in your hustle or that you’re just not doing enough. Whenever you are in those feelings, brush them off and focus on building what you are building. And remember that the grass isn’t always greener on the other side.

CHRONICLE 14

Manna fell from heaven

The men and women and children

Hurried away to gather some but -

I built a machine to store the manna.

I learnt my lessons the hard way and

No more hand to mouth.

Dear Diary, keep my thoughts as secret as news can be…