Daily Diary

July 10th

Dear Diary,

I finally finished watching “Fight Club” today after mass. When you watch to the end, you want to watch it again because the first watch feels like you were rushing. I’d say it’s a very good movie with an amazing imagination from the creator.

I wrote a short poem today — “Sick and Tired”

Don’t call my phone today I won’t be picking.

I might be dead or sleeping.

Sick and tired

Of life

But not of living.

Yesterday was Lizette’s birthday and she decided to celebrate it with the orphans today. It’s a beautiful action I am still to undertake — sharing with the less privileged. I have started to believe a lot in the theory that those who give out much, receive much more, but I also think that you need to be giving genuinely and be happy about it. Either way, there are a lot of orphans and less privileged people out here — of you have but the widow’s mite, you might as well help them with it.

On the contrary, I find it very weird when we go out of our way to help or be kind to others when our immediate entourage can’t receive that same affection and/or generosity. Because after all, charity begins at home. So while we do our bests to help others out, we should start by helping those closest to us.

And this mostly often happens with the men. We can try to change this mindset by helping our friends and family first. Because they say your network is your net worth.

In another conversation today, a lady told me that she believes it’s okay to date multiple partners because according to her, there is no guarantee that you two are in a relationship. She said it’ll only become a relationship when she is certain about her feelings towards you. Because she might be missing the right person by restricting the others too soon. But how then do you keep up with this? Won’t there be some sort of unequal share of affection and attention? If you have a favorite amongst all these people, why not just concentrate on them?

This same discussion made me reminisce tweet I had seen on Twitter earlier. Why is sex the measure of infidelity? Because in the “I confess” for Catholics, we say “… that I have sinned, I my thoughts, in my words, in what I have done and in what I have failed to do…” This means that if we want to look at it critically, infidelity could also be just by thoughts. Infidelity could be by talking to another person in the same way and with the same energy you talk to your partner. But why does society focus only on sex?

On some days, you get really tired of everything and you want to take a long pause. What makes you start again on the next days? What motivates you to keep going? What do you do when these busy cycles of life become annoying as well?

Dear Diary, keep my thoughts as secret as news can be…