Daily Diary

August 5th

Dear Diary,

I am constantly struggling with a lot of things — the consequences of my inactions; the setbacks of my indecisiveness; the lateness of my execution; my laziness and procrastination. I am always fighting a battle of not slumbering back into the vices that oftentimes hold me captive. The list is long and I need strength and prayers to overcome.

Today, I got to meet a friend I’ve been chatting with online for more than 6 months. It was an interesting meeting because I wasn’t disappointed and I hope he wasn’t too. Most often, we get disappointed by our expectations of things. And sometimes, the things you didn’t expect, happen to you in the most unfathomable ways.

While reflecting on why strangers tend to support you more than your friends and family, I arrived at an interesting conclusion — those who know you are sometimes afraid of how mighty you might become. Check the story of Joseph and his brothers.

We need to make/create more memories — diary, poetry, photography, culinary, etc. When we want to reminisce about these years in the future, we’ll be able to read and then watch the memories that fill us with euphoria and nostalgia as we smile and cry at the days of youth that have now passed.

The night will be long and for those sleeping, they’ve already found their peace. For me writing this, it is a mixture of bitter sweet. The sun has set but its heat still roams about. If I get courage, I might tell you what is happening. I know I’m too shy to confide in you. One day hopefully, I’ll do so without fear or shame.

Dear Diary, keep my thoughts as secret as news can be…