Daily Diary

October 18th

Dear Diary,

Throughout yesterday, a song I wrote in August kept ringing in my head and the one line that kept on echoing was — “Should I give you one more chance to proof the love that you preach” This only comes as a reminder that talk is cheap and though you want to believe when people say they’ll be there for you, you have to be wary of their eloquent speeches for as a friend of mine said, you can only know someone loves you in the direst of situations. When confronted with terminal diseases or disabilities, if they stick around, then they really care. Because most people think love ends only at the fancy restaurants or the couple goals pictures you see on the internet but that’s just the beautiful tip of the iceberg. So when someone tells you they love you, ask them two questions — how much and for how long?

Yesterday, was a day I went want to frequently have because I hate the feelings that come with regret and chagrin. They make you start doubting everything that has happened in a while. And you are often quick to forget that there can never be no sweet without sweat, no gain with pain and no dark cloud without a silver linen. And as all humans, you know it would last only for a while but sometimes, the pain, anguish, chagrin, despair, lasts for more than a night and you keep wondering if joy truly comes in the morning.

CHRONICLE 18

If life ends today

I will cry and wail

For I have loved

And I have lost

But I have never truly known

What it feels like to own 100000 bucks.

Dear Diary, keep my thoughts as secret as news can be…